Alot easier said than done…

It is easy to hear a sermon on love; read a book about love; think about love; but doing it all day long is exhausting!

I feel like I am learning how to walk all over again…baby steps. I woke up this morning and asked God to give me the ability to love the way He wants me to; I prayed for courage and endurance. Endurance, yes, endurance. It is hard work to love all day long. I am exhausted and feel like I need to have a new bedtime, like 5pm.

I was wiped out by 4 today. I had to call an agency today that has one of those systems where you answer questions. After answering a barrage of silly questions I ended up with please hold next available agent (if the computer could’ve it would have said, hold on dummy for an agent). I was on hold till I received a recording stating please call during business hours. WHAT???!!!!???? I was on hold for an hour! LOVE…what is that?

I had to breath in and refocus my energy, and just as I did that, about ready to lose my mind on the first poor victim that walked by, I had my study Bible open and read:

“Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness adn patience. Bear with each other adn forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.” Colossians 3:12-14

Talk about a Scripture to put me in my place. I ended up forgetting I was angry and frustrated, and have moved on to a happy place. As I type this I am reminded that God was glorified today because I did not lose it. I kept my cool and stayed calm. I did not say something to an innocent person out of frustration. I did not have to apologize to anyone. I did not have to deal with a minute of guilt. My kids witnessed their mom staying calm under pressure and saw love overcome anger. 

I realize as I type this at 8pm this evening that I am in training to break some bad habits and create some new habits. I want to become habitually loving! How are you doing?